At least, that is how things stood a few years ago. Since my summer quest to better understand my father, I have been chipping away at that wall (or, to keep my metaphors consistent, chipping away at the ledge to give me a stairway across the gap). I have been grabbing onto fleeting images, cataloging together floating pieces, and generally disbelieving that these memories are not mine to share.
Here is the product of my most recent tact. I thought to dissect who I am today as the extension of ribbons that have evolved over my life. Every couple of years, these ribbons take on a new turn-- an every 7 they twist into a new core (something I'm due again for soon). The roadmap I have figured out is incomplete, but it goes something like this:
|2013-5||World modeler||Collaborations||complexity||coupled models|
|2010-2||Dev. at large||SusDev||worldchanging||susdev. classes|
|2008-9||Traveling Dev.||Flame||social justice||TN startup|
|2006-7||Contract Dev.||Rocky||traveling||signal processing|
|2004-5||Olin superninja||Olin College||big ideas||education|
|2002-3||Growing Jimmy||SCA||human models||dance|
|2000-1||MIT student||ESG & Random||philo. & learning||study groups|
|1998-9||STEM geek||Computer lab||college||webpages|
|1996-7||Smart aleck||Lowell home||self-directed edu.||math|
|1990-1||Sleep-less||Redwood Valley Elem.||fantasy||taking apart|
|1988-9||James Friends||Capella Elem.||invention||reading|
|1986-7||Mama's boy||Lutheran school||sister problems||no naps|
There are connections between all of these, which I can't represent in the table: features that disappear and reappear for reasons complex and unknown. But for all it's abstruseness, that is my life.